Welcome to my life

Greetings to anyone that is reading.

Let me give a bit of background info...

I'm Zally, i'm 20 and I live in a flat on my own in London. I am a happy person and I appreciate the small things in life. I love to laugh and I enjoy my life. Most of the time!

I work in accounts full-time. I enjoy my job to an extent but my office is a bit mental really. It's like The Office only Ricky Gervais is a woman. Same sort of dynamics and madness but all fun and laughs at the end of the day. I have made some great friends and I am lucky to work on a good team of people. In terms of my career, I have no idea what I want to do in the future. It does scare me in a way because I genuinely don't know where I will be in 5 years time. Most people at least have a fair idea. I would love to work in fashion but it is so hard to get into the industry I am considering going down a different path.

I have no significant other at the moment. It's my own fault really after my last relationship I haven't really put myself out there as such. There is a guy I really like and will probably mention crap loads in my blog, but he is like my best friend I guess. I've known him since the summer and we go through phases of meeting up loads and not seeing each other for weeks. When we are together it is like we are a couple but it's all unofficial and stuff and I know he is seeing other people, but then again I have as well since we got to know each other. It's a strange situation really but neither of us are prepared to put our neck on the line and say anything about it. I tried to once but it was so awkward I sort of laughed it off. I am working on it though, I have a plan which I reveal in a separate post. See I told you he will be mentioned a fair amount!!

In terms of family life, we aren't very close and I don't see them much despite them living so near. I am happy with this. I have no issues with being on my own and to be honest I love my own company often more than anyone elses... as bad as it sounds. I find whenever I go home there are arguments and I just leave feeling crap so for that reason I generally stay away.

As a person I am not overly confident. I don't like the way I look and have major issues with my weight. I accept that I am overweight and I know it's my own fault. I have a weird relationship with food. I can be totally fine and eat whatever I like for months but at random intervals I get voices in my head which will completely change my views on myself and my diet. When I am in this stage I get addicted to not eating and losing weight and it controls my life. I am in this stage now, and I fear I will be for a long time. I am a very articulate person and a total perfectionist so when I do anything it is done to the best of my ability. So when I diet I just can't be happy with losing a couple of pounds a week. On average I lose around 7 pounds a week when I am dieting and the quick results is what keeps me going. I am very lazy and unshamed of the fact I loathe exercise. Any weight loss I have is due to cutting back food but I will always wonder how much results would be boosted if I did exercise. If I ever hit a plateau where I can't lose weight I will definately consider exercising.

I hope this gives an insight into what sort of person I am and I will be updating this alot with new stuff as it happens and also random facts and information thrown in.

I hope you enjoy X