Sincere apologies

I haven't updated in ages... I have been very sick and not been able to access my pc. Today I am starting to get better... I have tonsilitis atm which sucks. On the upside i'm not at work :)

Interesting piece of news- I am looking into doing a degree with the open university. I really want more qualifications. Im going to do a law degree but it starts feb 2012, so in the meantime I am going to do short courses in psychology and social sciences. I just need to register and put the wheels in motion.

yuck

2 bowls of cornflakes
1 packet of prawn cocktail crisps.

feel sick/guilty/fat/ugly and horrible etc etc.

C is coming over tonight. This makes me happy. We are closer than ever atm. Thing is though I like us how we are. I don't think I want a relationship. I just want us to be like this forever. Putting a label on what we have just injects the poison into us.

I just can't wait for all this to be over. When i'm skinny everything will fall into place.

I'm an ordinary girl with an ordinary waist, but ordinary just isn't good enough today.

Bad Times

Yesterday was one of the worst days. I didn't eat anything all day and went for a run for like 4 miles. I passed out in the street and was sick. Not good. I called C and he came and looked after me. He is such a gem, I really do love him. I will not be exercising anymore I have decided. Totally isn't worth the hassle!

Today so far I have had some chunks of chicken breast dipped in nandos peri peri sauce yummy!

phew!

still lost 3/4 of a pound lolz. Today :

2 bowls of cornflakes
2 peri peri chicken breasts. too addictive!

Plenty of walking today though. Let's see what happens!

binge zally binge

I feel sick.

2 bowls of cornflakes
1 packet of prawn cocktail crisps
2 chicken breasts wrapped in bacon with cheese
handful of carrot batons.

nuff said.

Happy!

Yesterday I ate 2 bowls of cornflakes and a bowl of prawn cocktail crisps and still managed to lose a pound! I was worrying about it all night as well.That's something. What to eat today though.. that is the question.

I don't know everything

First of all after my "binge" yesterday I still lost 1 pound. Made me smile all day. Today I have had 2 bowls of cornflakes with skimmed milk. Not too bad. Around 400 cals ish! During lunch today I went clothes shopping with a girl from work as she needed a dress for the xmas party this friday. She's really pretty and a size 8. Perfect really... grrr! In a way it was really nice walking around picking out clothes for her even though secretly in my head I was picking for me. It just made me think how amazing it will feel to pick out size 8 clothes.

Oh my god... in Warehouse I tried on a dress in a size 10 (jersey stretchy fabric) and it looked really good. It is soooo rare I think I look good in something so was a bit strange. Its £60 and I haven't bought it yet but will definately at some point. I thought I was trying on a 12 but it was a 10 on the wrong hanger. Made me feel really good about myself actually as I would never have tried on a 10. It hugged in all the right places and just made me feel pretty. I love it. :D Now all I need is somewhere to wear it to! I'm thinking a date with C!!!!

 Isn't it pretty!!!!